An Outcry of Help!
Saturday, Mar. 27, 2004 - 4:23 a.m.
Dear God,
Yesterday is a long day.. Extremely long!
Long because it’s a hard day! A busy day at my part-time work, a stressful day at school, a hectic day filled with 1 project discussion after another! Ouch! We have 6 projects at hand for this semester!
(It seems alright to some. “What is your problem? After all, you have the WHOLE semester right?” The problem is we procrastinate, the problems is some unexpected crop-ups, the problem is that we are inefficient, the problem is we do not plan properly, the problem is that all projects deadline is in the same period! Argh!)
Long because of the stupid squabble I just had with my mum!
Heavenly Father, I’m pouring out to You.. Please do not think that I am venting my frustration on You.
Lord, You say in Your Word (Bible) that You are close to the broken-hearted. Help me to feel You are near! Please!
*signs*
Why do we humans know the things that we are supposed to do yet we don’t do?
How many times I yearn to obey my parents yet I still disobey?
How many times did I said sorry to You, dear Heavenly Father yet repeat the same mistake over and over again as if I don’t appreciate the Lord Jesus’ action on the cross?
Why am I so rebellious?
Why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why did Adam and Eve choose to disobey God in the first place..? If he doesn’t, I would not have been like that!!! (I believe that I am his descendant)
Lord Jesus, by dying on the cross You bear the consequence of our sin.. yet at the same time we have to bear some consequences ourselves.. Why?
Because Lord, You are holy.. YOU ARE HOLY! You do not let an unlawfully act go unpunished! Because of Your holiness, there are such things as judgement, punishment, consequence, and retribution..
Help me understand and appreciate Your PURE HOLINESS!
*wipes my tears*
Lord, I am struggling! I am so weak that I fear I cannot take it.. I fear that I will go mad.. Lord, give me sanity! I beg You!
Father, please hold me in embrace.. take me deeper in love with You.. draw me close to You.. I love You.. I need You! Please do not leave me or forsake me cos I cannot imagine life with You and Your grace, mercy, strength..
*soaked in His love*
Dear Father, thank You for this outburst!
You made this day hard for my own good. You want me to learn to depend on You.. not on anyone.. not even my parents who love me so much that I often take them for granted..
Lord, this is going to be tough! Total dependence on You when I cannot physically see You!
Wow! Can I do that?
I can do ALL things through Christ who give me strength! (Phil 4:13) Please give me strength and made me grow!
Holy Spirit, come fall afresh on me! Jesus, be close to me! Father, help me appreciate Your love for me!
All these I pray in Jesus’ most magnificent name, AMEN!
*signing off*
=Shu Ling=
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