Letting my thoughts run wild?
Friday, May. 10, 2002 - 12:12 a.m.
Dearie Diary,
I mentioned in my previous diary entry that I will continue to write about my thoughts after reading the book "The Power of Prayful Living". However for today's entry, I will not write about it yet. I will be writing things that come to my mind at the moment.
Just now I went to a community centre karaoke. Though it was just a short 3 hours session, I must agree that it was enjoyable. One of our Alpha friend was there. (Just in case you forgot what Alpha is, I shall remind you that it is a course that enables people to know more about Christianity) It is nice talking to him as he got his own opinions on a lot of issues. This is what I observed when he talked to people in my home group. I guess his knowledge comes from the books he read. I think he reads a lot in attempt to find answers to his philosophical questions. Yet he has not read the bible, the LIVING WORD that can answer all his questions.
Today I got to talk to him about how God paved a path for me to be a Christian. I wander how he feels about my testimony but I pray that God will do something to his heart. Well, enough is said about him, I just pray that GOD will touch his heart with THE TRUTH.
In a few weeks time I will be studying again after a long 6 months break from school. I feel excited, fearful and stress about starting school. Excited to be studying again. Yet fearful about relating to people. I am not very good when it comes to that. Stressed that I will not do well in my studies. I kinda wasted 2 years to study for the A levels which can allow me to gain entry to an university. Did not do well in the A levels and now going into poly. If I did not excel in poly, I will feel that I am so useless and stupid.
Lord Jesus, I pray against all negative thoughts that I have right now. Please remove any anxieties that is in my heart. Lord I pray for wisdom to know how to relate to people. I also pray for my god-sister Li Ting who will be studying soon. May she too excel in her studies. All these I pray in Jesus' name. Amen!
Next thing that comes to my mind is why some of my friends choose to be a 'free-thinker' or an atheist. In my opinion, they either think that:
1) Being a Christian is very demanding 2) There is no point to be a Christian 3) Christian are 'hypocrites'
Point 1 : Many feel that it is demanding to go to church, read the bible, praying, serving the community & even giving 10% of the income. To non-believers, this is see as a chore or a burden. I admit that I will also feel this way if I put myself in the shoes of non-believer. But I think otherwise since I am a Christian.
When one seriously recieve Christ, he will reflect that that the above-mentioned 'chores' is something he has to do in order for him to grow to become a mature Christian.
Another 'chore' is the giving 10% of the income. Some non-believers mention that the money could be taken by the pastor to keep in his own pocket. Their thinking is that because sometimes they see pastor driving big cars while the members of the church are poor. While I do not deny that a minority of pastors MAY-BE dishonest, but majority of the pastor are rich because of God's blessing to them and not due to stealing the money.
Point 2 : The biggest reason as to why some do not see the need to be saved is that they did not realise that they are heading for hell. They do not believe that they are sinner and thus thinks that salvation is unnecessary. Their life is so good that they think they do not need a God.
Point 3 : As for the viewpoint that some Christians are hypocrites, I believe that the Christian himself or herself is struggling to change for the better. In the process of the attempt to change it may seem to others that he is being hypocritial.
I guess my thought run too wild already and now I am quite tired. Got to go and sleep now.
-Shu Ling-
p/s: Whatever written is all my opinions and thoughts, I apologise for people who felt offended in any way.
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